nothingleft/or/allin

 

if only you had known the volume of tears

i cried in that solitude where only God hears

like a coward in battle, hiding year after year

could it have been caused by an absence in me of fear

perhaps an abundance, yes, that deposited me here

would it have mattered, or might it  still be unclear

shaking and rattling like a broken brass gear

completely diminished, a fool, cavalier

like an abandoned old lighthouse whose beacon disappears

trying to find where the rocks be has left me drowning  in arrears

reflecting on past moments my life lessons appear 

as visions of headlights that froze that young deer

all the while casts a long shadow on the children so near

i would rather they stay innocent, so precious, so dear

nothing left when i look, nothing at all when i peer

the band plays all the old hits, and yet still no one cheers

like a dry desert wind passing harshly through these ears

a lifetime of imaginations, moving through my mind become just  smear

how i long for that land where confusion was clear

i’ve got to find the a way back, i must persevere

are you blind can you see,deaf can hear

it couldn’t be me cause i know that i’m sincere

EPILOGUE

BUT JESUS IS ALWAYS

HERE

NEAR

CLEAR

DEAR

NOT GIVEN TO US A SPIRIT OF FEAR

THE ANGELS IN HEAVEN SOUND THE HOLY CHEER

AS EVEN ONE AS ME DOTH DRAWS NEAR

WE WITH PATIENCE, ENDURANCE, WAIT FOR HIM TO APPEAR